Here it is:
My weekly weigh in.
BEGINNING WEEK: 217.4
LAST WEEK: 203.6
THIS WEEK: 205.0
RESULT THIS WEEK: GAIN 1.4
TOTAL REGAIN LOSS: -12.4
I want to stomp my feet, scream, throw something, yelling obscenities @#$#@#@#$,……but I kind of expected it. I came out of the gate with a 14 lbs loss. I knew there was water weight in there, I knew there was swelling from my vein surgeries….all kinds of mess I started with in my body. I am THANKFUL for the 14lb loss out of the gate….it put my head in the right mind-set, made me feel like it was worth showing up because I had results. This week I ate great and hit that gym….and gained. Was I hoping to hit 199 with a 4 lb loss….be below 200….you bet I did…..but I knew better. I have been puffy, cramps and bloated this week ( thank you mother nature— or this would have been a whole different blog post –) and I have played with some strength training. My body is adjusting right now….and I am FINE WITH THAT….why you ask? Because it FEELS better. I feel stronger and healthier. My cravings have died down to a dull roar. My body is enjoying the whole foods and eating clean— and craving the sweat and workouts. I am sleeping deeper. It is all good. I feel smaller and tighter, my clothes fit better—- it is ALL GOOD. While my overachiever self wants to react in a negative way, my brat evil side wants to say, ” screw this….bring on the chocolate and cupcakes”…..there is NO WAY that is an option. We are just going to set that treadmill climb a little higher and GET TO WORK.
I can’t believe another week has gone by! Last week held its challenges. My friend DJ was in from Detroit playing in Chi-town. First real restaurant outings since I started this program. We did Sushi on Friday night….followed by a nice walk in the city. Did some brazilian on Saturday night….and a great protein eggbake Sunday morning. Clean eating with Mr. D to the J!! Not hard to do when you have a hot trainer built like a MAC truck next to you. It was so great spending time with him, he is a true inspiration– a man on mission, that minces no words–and changes lives everyday. He is rough, tough and to the point….just the way it should be— if you are looking for cupcakes and sugar, not the trainer for you.
Then it was back into another week of Anniversary sale at work. Busy, busy…getting ready for our fall fragrance launches. So many new exciting things coming down the pipeline….Chanel has something delicious up their sleeve ( can’t talk about it yet ) Lady Gaga has a fragrance launching. Will be sure to keep you all updated on what is new.
Met with therapist Dr. S again this week. I am really enjoying our time and conversations. I have always been incredibly skeptical about therapy, I have always believed in it ….but thought finding a good one is like a needle in a haystack. When I looked for that needle— I searched high and low–and was really picky. I think I found a gem. Our conversations have been incredibly enlightening, and if nothing else has made me much more aware of my thoughts, reactions and most of all….ACTIONS. To have a complete stranger paraphrase and repeat back to you your life….so interesting. I always walk out of there with a ton of energy, drive and determination. I have already put so much into action from our conversations. Best 3 hours I have invested in years.
The workouts at the gym this week have been full of cross training on the free motion and Turbo Kick/Spin. This girl loves her cardio….but I know I have to start dating others more. I have to start a new relationship with Mr. Strength Training. I have to wrap these long legs and arms around him….and make it HAPPEN. There is something about the thump of the music and the drive of the cardio that I am addicted too….but I have to move on. I know I will get better results and longer calorie burn with strength training. Besides, who doesn’t want some toned arms, defined abs ( I know they are in there somewhere) and a strong core. I know part of my issues is the worry of perfection. Wanting to do every curl and pull right. Focusing on the right muscles to get the results. I am hyper aware of bad form— and trust me, you are surrounded by it at the club. That is why I love working out with a trainer that is watching and guiding you every step of the way. It is just not in the budget right now. So….it is time to put on the big girl panties ( no pun intended on that one ) and cross over to the dark side of the gym. The man club. I am going to commit right now to at least 3x next week. I am also checking out programs that I can do in the gym here in our building late at night in the 24 hour workout room by myself. I am a big Beachbody fan…right now I am trying to decide between P90x, Les Mills and Chalene Extreme for strength training. At the moment….Chalene is leading the pack. I can sneak down there later at night with my laptop…and use their great assortment of weight and get in a good 30-45 min routine. I am not really conditioned for P90x….at least that is the excuse I keep telling myself….but the whole point of P90 is to get conditioned….but to be honest? Tony Horton is just a little scary–scary in a good way though. I think I am going to tackle Chalene Extreme which is a 90 program, then P90x can be the next goal. Tony, I am coming for you…eventually…..don’t wait up
My best friend Clinton is flying into Chicago today. I can’t wait!!! He lives in Lancaster PA currently, which makes it incredibly hard for us to connect. He is actually in WI on business this week so he is taking a little side trip down to Chicago to play with me and then fly back home on Sunday. Typically we plan every second of out time together…but this weekend we are going with the flow….and for you that know me, this is not easy. Part of my therapy challenge is to let loose of the reins a little bit, not try to control every minute of everything. So the only thing I know for sure is that he is meeting me at work tomorrow night at 5:00, and he is flying out on Sunday around 9am. So stay tuned on Facebook to see our adventures unfold. (Facebook page: Bariatric Regain Laura Preston)
Life is full of ups and downs….and today could be considered a down– or a set back…but I refuse to see it that way. It was a great week that I am proud of, that felt good….and the next week is going to even better. This is where we have to remember this is a lifestyle, it is not the way of life until you see the magic number.
We have work to do….lets get to it!
Desired Goal: 175—
30 lbs TO GO— I have the game face on!
HOW DID YOU DO? Are you holding yourself accountable? If no, why not? It is only a number. This number represents a physical fact you can change if you don’t like it….it is nothing permanent or to be afraid of— or most of all ashamed. Find your reality, share it with someone close who will support you. WRITE IT DOWN. Check in with it once a week. Keep it real and in the front of your mind.
Ok….on to week #4…..I’ve got this, this week is MINE. Is it going to be YOURS? Dig deep. commit for 7 DAYS! You can do anything for 7 days!!